My path as a healer started early on in life. I grew up with a mother who was not well and suffered a great deal. Although medical science made life livable for my mother and our family, the medical world was able to help her only to a limited degree, managing her symptoms but unable to identify and address the cause of her suffering.
Being exposed to her pain day by day created in me a deep desire to find ways of healing that pain. I was convinced that there must be more and was determined to find it.
In my late teenage years I started to learn about new healing modalities, not just addressing the physical body, but emotions, mind and spirit. I immediately had a natural affinity and love for working with energy and I have pursued it ever since in many different forms.
In my early twenties I began working as a translator for mediums, healers and spiritual teachers from England, developing links with the Spiritualist tradition there. This was the start of a whole new direction in my life and it began a journey that has led me on an exciting, unique and often challenging path. While pursuing alternative approaches to healing, I became keenly aware of my own mental and emotional patterns without knowing their roots.
So what began as a desire to bring healing to others, became my own journey of healing as well. The desire to bring about my own healing as well as bringing healing to others has led me to study a wide variety of healing modalities – especially in the field of energy work – the most important being Core and Cellular Transformational Healing through the work of Ger Lyons, Reiki (Usui Reiki Ryoho), Pranic Healing and Reflexology.
I have always felt a deep connection with the natural world and have been aware of the healing power of nature from early on. I have studied herbs, and learnt about wild edible plants as well as some wilderness survival skills. I am excited to find uses for plants that have been forgotten in our mainstream world. Nature inspires me, calms me, overwhelms me with gratitude for her abundance and beauty and I carry a great desire to share this love and respect for nature with others. Since my travels to Ireland in 2012 and a deeper immersion in the Celtic tradition as well as the purchase of ‘our’ land in 2013, this connection has deepened even more.
Through all these varied experiences I have gained a much clearer sense of myself and what I am about. In very simple terms I am a highly intuitive channel of healing energy, a guide to what lies hidden and blocks us from health and aliveness in all aspects of our self – body, emotions, mind and spirit. It is my deepest desire to share this.
“Be still and know that I am God”
My life has been the gradual rediscovery of this path.
As a child, I spent most of my life in silence. I was extremely shy, and hardly spoke. It was so extreme that for much of my early life people literally spoke for me. I was extremely sensitive, easily hurt and often overwhelmed by what I could feel around me and inside of me, unable to sort through any of it. I spent much of my growing up in inner turmoil, thinking all this turmoil was me. On the outside, my life was quite “normal”. So why all this inner turmoil?
One thing I knew was that I could listen. When I was young, people came to me to talk. They needed someone who would listen. And I would listen. I could feel what was underneath the words. I could often intuit things, and just know things. But I also absorbed a lot.
Somewhere along the way I lost touch with this. A deep disconnect happened. I dove fully into a life of the mind. I lived for many, many years in a world of ideas and now had lots to say - especially about God - this being the biggest idea that I tried to unravel. But God remained in many ways a concept to believe in rather than a living spiritual reality. I had a deep craving to give myself over to God, abandon myself to God. But it turned out to be more like being attached to an idea of God and running away from myself.
The truth is that God has been unraveling me instead! Spirit has been bringing me back (sometimes very painfully) to that place I knew as a child. Along the way I experienced some important realizations. We exist in a field – or rather we exist as a field and that everything we do, think and feel is part of this field and affects this field. We are all connected. This is not a concept but something I experience more and more deeply.
In the past I always asked “what is wrong with me?” Now I ask “what is going on, what is showing up in the field, what is asking for healing so that I can live more fully?” From this place the “Truth (does) set us free”
This is the healing work of Core and Cellular Transformation which Helga and I have been training in with the guidance of our teacher Ger Lyons. Through invocation and ancient Celtic healing transmissions we can clear and purify the core and cellular memory where trauma and programming is stored at its origins. We can release this stagnant dead energy that no longer serves us. We breathe in new life.
For me, life has become one of deep, active listening and living mystic prayer. It is my deepest desire to offer this work in the world, as an instrument and channel for healing.